" i have fucking issues . & i will never find someone that will help solve them. not even dr. phil would know what to do here ." ♥ God help me

hi. it's kayleigh. i haven't been on this account for the longest, but i'm sure you didn't notice anyway. Too much shts been goin on lately, idk what to do. The only reason i have this rant-thing going on, is because I need to open up. buhht, i can't just open up to someone face-to-face, so ima type all my feelings out. if you read this whole entire thing, you're an angel/buhht i understand how someone might not...
 
~My mom's seeing this new guy, named Darren, & I hate everything about him. He's rude & just by his attitude you can see that he thinks he's more important to my mom then me. hes trying to take all my mom's time away from me & i don't see her as much anymore. he's like...brainwashing her. At this point, i wanna go back to Cali & live with my dad...there's no woman in his life. Eventhough i always find myself hoping that mom & him would get back together ever since i was 10 & they split. i wanna tell my mom to stop seeing him, buhht she looks so happy :( idk what to do
~everyone's dying. my friend annie of suicide, my lil cuzzo of cancer, my grandpa of heart attack, my uncle (natural causes). who knows who will be next? someone i love too much, for sure.
~i know to most it won't seem like a big deal, but i am having a couple relationship problems. if you've read anything on my other sets, you'll see i have/had a bf named Andrew. our story is not regular, it's disney channel like. it's about 2 little kids that meet once in the complete other side of the country & after a couple years of nearly forgetting eachother, meet up again & let the feelings comeback. well, yesterday, i just found out he was cheating on me. & i found out right in front of him, in chemistry class. one of my bestfriend's showed me some texts on Andrew's phone like "Hey beautiful." "i love u babbyy" "i cant wait to see you, i miss you soo much". i started crying right there. I ran out of class & into the parking lot. Stupid Andrew went after me. Said he didn't mean it. said he didn't mean to hurt me. said he only had feelings for me. trying to hold me, trying to kiss me & call me "babe"...& i pushed him away. i hate him. Yet of course, still feel all of those good feelings to, knowing the "hate" isn't actually hate, it's hurt. we never actually broke it off. he keeps trying to talk to me buht i keep the door locked. i didn't go to school. mom was out with darren, she didn't notice. Tomorrow Darren has to work so I know mom will be home & I'll be at school. I'm so scared. idk what to do :'( i have to respect myself & forget about him. Buthtttt, i feel like our story is just so incredible, we're supposed to be with eachother. & i'm supposed to love him one day. i'm supposed to grow old with him & love him until my crinkly old butt falls off. God help me.
~i smoked a cigarette today. i know its bad for me. but darren left a box of Marlboro on the kitchen counter & i heard that shitt eliminates all worries at least for the moment. it didn't.
~i'm only 16. & i've gotten raped, smoked, drank, gotten abused, felt like killing myself, been kicked out of a school, gotten called the police on & so much other stupid crap. idk what to do with my life anymore. &i'm not thinking of killing myself. just escaping. fuckking escaping all of these fuccking problems -____- i feel like running away & starting a new life but i know i won't be able to leave my old one behind.
 
i'm so screwed.

---Annabelle Marie Schneider---
she was a very normal girl, who liked to make people smile. She never complained. She never said something was wrong. But, Annie secretly hated her life. Nobody knows what triggered it. She hung herself this very day last year. Some people say Annie was bullied, others say it was her parents divorce & others say she was on drugs , in to prostitution & a bunch of illegal things & was threatened to be snitched out so she killed herself. Whatever the case may be, she had a beautiful generous soul that went along with her beautiful face. She was gorgeous in & out. She was there for me & so many others when times were tough. She is deeply missed, & will never be forgotten! W E . L O V E . Y O U . A N N I E .
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I think rita ora is so smexxy (no homo lol) & her style is sick !! * she inspired me to do that ^___^
she knows how to sing too ,,,,,
too bad she illuminati :/ /.\

so i'm initially from here but when my parents divorced i moved to NY .. i got to spend Christmas with my mom in ny but from yesterdayy to Jan 2nd , i've gotta spend it with my dad . i miss andrew :'( ... he hasnt texted me since monday & we havent seen each other since friday when we had that fight . i dont wanna spill all my relationship problems outt but there's a rumor that i went to california to see an old boyfrend & his jealous ass is furious with me. i dont get why he cant just believe me O.O ! ohhh well, we're gonna have to settle this one out . wish me luck !